Room For Rent?

When will my boyfriend ever understand that once I wake myself up to speak to him one in the morning, I'm ready to talk? So what if I have school. I went to sleep early just so I could talk to you and not have to worry about needing extra hours of sleep... *adjusting pillow behind my head*

Now, I am WIDE AWAKE.

The blog post title?
Right.

I need to remove myself from where I am staying. I reside with family members who have made it slear to me that I have prolonged my stay. Mentally, I'm ready to take on the challenges of having my own place and paying bills. But, I have no physical encouragement. Plus, who going to tell a 19-year-old they are ready to be on their own just because they sound mature? I've seen a lot of girls living on their own from younger ages, but how the hell are they doing it? How did they just get a place and not pay as much or whatever?

But,

Then I noticed... They had a child or kids..
I go to the wackiest school and have the wackiest job in the world..
Can I afford to live on my own?

Welpp,
According to the financial advisor at school, an apartment is way out of my league. (thanks bitch. you're great.) This past weekend has shown me that it is time for me to find my way out of hell. Pronto. I cannot continue to live with distance between my "family". My reasoning for the on-quote off-quote is the simple fact that family is not suppose to make you feel out of place. Family does not throw your past back in your face because they cannot get their way. Family does not call you out of your name then be mad that someone else does..
THE POINT IS, I have to go. Immediately. Being the black sheep of this family has gotten old. I'm ready for newer and better things. I hate that fact that I feel like I have no home. I think I just come to a place and sleep, eat, bathe, and comb my hair. *blank stare*

The only place I think I'll ever call home is my OWN place.
The only family I think I'll ever have is if I have a kid or something.
The only encouragement I have is from G*D. Screw my boyfriend.

He wants to 'help' me but, he's taking too long. Just slowing up my progress.. I need out, boy! Can't you see?!

Room for rent? Apartment for rent? Better life for rent? Forget mine..